Concert

lolz..
now i still donno wat concert i'm going to..
later 6.00am edi need to take bus for go kl..
zzz..
hope that this concert won't disappointed me.lolz..
really hope that can laugh out loud!!!!

Finally made up the decision...
to not contact her anymore..

this is a hard hard decision...
i don't know is it the best decision for us or not..
but i think it is the best for me...
at least i can wake up....

still remember that i sing a song for u last time..
吴克群的越爱越难过...
u said is it possible for me to do it..
now i will do it...
说 说你为什么 为什么要走
说你为何要分手
别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口 分手的理由
但你却拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
但你还拖 拖 拖 拖到什么时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别拖 拖 拖 大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚 一句话就够
如果说你要走 我不会留
我不去管以后
多么痛 多么的难过
别越爱越难过
Do Do Re Re Mi Mi Re Do
Do Do Re Mi Do

然后连话都不说 继续沉默
连朋友都没得作 为了什么
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧 坏人我来做

i don't know what's ur feeling about me...
is it i just be a stupid for such a long time?
or i just think too much for such a long time?
i don't know..cuz u never give me a clear answer...
i really feel tired on this relationship...
i also feel very bad when i made up the decision..
but do u know u are hurt me more than the decision i made?
u changed so much since ur birthday i think..
i don't know where the things go wrong..
but u made me feel like u are trying to run away from me..
okay..
just please leave me alone for a time...
i'm not sure i still can treat u like a friend or not..
cuz i really feel bad this time...
please...don't make me feel bad again...
i'm just a boy who also know how to cry...

thx for giving me so much happiness for all this way...
sincerely thx to u...

since i no update my blog for such a long time,
i think nobody will care my blog edi,right??
haha..
watever,sometimes i really need one place to say out..
a place that with nobody will tease..a lonely place...

since her birthday i think....we edi less contact with each other...
is very less...
no doubt, i'm still cant get used with the days that no her sms...
but, wat more i can do...
nobody will understand my feeling...
i juz can continue my life by stop thinking her??
no..i can't do that..
crush that...argh...
it's been a long long time that i never feel like this be4..
why i need to suffer it again...
i need a answer from her..
but i know it's impossible to get it...
watever...
everyday also try to work hard,make myself more busy.
cuz it really works...works on making me stop thinking of her..
works on stop sms her...
try to hang out with friends,
but also cant get the happiness that i should..
try to laugh out loud,
but still laugh with fake...
try to forget her,
but my mind is full of her..

juz let it be...let the time cure all the hurt...

i juz wish we can juz like last time that we did...but i think it's hard to go back...
is ur change or my change that let this happen??
i no wish to think, and don want to think...
cuz i know i wont get a answer....

anyway, good luck in ur exam...

A whole NEW life~

Sorry for no update for such a long time....
Since I graduated my Diploma in E&C,
I straight start my working life..a whole new life..
a busy and boring working life..T_T

Work as what??
What job I get??

Don't expect I will get a high salary, good treatment or a easy job....
haha...

Actually I'm working as a trainer for contractor now...
lolz...
What a job that not related to my course ya..
hahaha....
I knew that...

I get this job through my friend's dad offer...
This is a whole new start for me...
cuz what i've studied almost is not used at here...
need to study from 0 again...
Sigh..T_T

It's been 2 months since I start my work,
feeling not bad...
at least all the colleagues are nice and kind..
since i'm the smallest in the company,
so they won't bully me^^
this is the benefit of being small..
haha^^v..weepee
Hope that I can do it well..

"TRY YOUR BEST"

P/S : I'm getting fatter and fatter...T_T
since i studied at Penang 2 and half years,
my weight is increase but not decrease...lolz...
KEEPING DIET now...Sigh...

忘我

几久了...
我有几久没回来更新了...
我也忘记了...
一个月??
两个月??

这世界即是如此..
往往不能跟着你的计划而走...

终于得面对了...
终年大考...
只要这次能顺利全部及格,
那我就宣布毕业了...

压力无形而生
不想逃避
选择了面对
但才知道我是很微小的

我想没人会了解小丑面具下的哭泣吧...

前途茫茫
不知是否应该继续我的求学旅程
抑或开始投身社会

你说我笑
我说你看不透我的笑

别人笑我太疯癫,我笑他人看不穿

昨天开始考了第一张
蛮顺利的
无惊无险
接下来还有四张
加油吧...

别想那么多了..
就一鼓作气的往前冲吧..

进?退?

为期一个星期的中期测验终于完结了...
这一刻,
我却没有因此而放松自己的心情..

面对模糊的未来,
我看不清方向...

继续深造抑或进入社会...
这个问题缠绕了许久...

无法取舍
无法决定

每个决定都有利也有弊
一个决定
一生命运

读书,做工,结婚生子....
不想就此度过一生
时常想做些疯狂且不按逻辑的事
却因为法治和道德的压迫而无法完成...

常常想让自己的人生是不平凡的人生
但却因为很多外在内在因素而退步

取舍
进退
决定

每个人都会遇到的问题
每个人都会有不一样的答案

未来??
算了...活在当下最自在...
不想为一个没有答案的问题而烦恼
相信你的一切
自然不会害怕一切
就如九把刀所写的"不要害怕你不相信的东西"

单身情人节~

外面弥漫着浪漫的气氛
屋里却散发着慵懒的气息...

这就是我这一刻的心情写照..
21年了...
一个从来没有和情人过情人节的人...
心情的低落总会被那张笑脸遮盖
虽然常讽刺那些为了送另一半礼物而奔波的朋友,
但心里满是羡慕...

情人节??
对我而言,
只是一个令我心情惆怅的日子...

P/S:我的Final Project接近完成阶段..
待我完成后就会回来了^^
特别感谢发霉熊的帮忙...
也谢谢你的贺年片..